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What’s that lump on your neck? I remember the words my doctor used during my yearly physical all those years ago. They ring in my ear as if it were yesterday and as I remember watching his face as he put his fingers to my neck and gently examined the front of my throat.
Those were the words that started a new journey of questioning … searching … confirming God’s place in my life. I thought I had dealt with my share of brokenness. Not just with my early years of emotional brokenness due to living in a dysfunctional family followed by years of bad decisions, but the physical brokenness I experienced in 2011 when I had a tumor removed from my brain. During that season, I thought I had figured life out. God was with me, and loved me, and had a plan for my life. Life was supposed to be smooth sailing from here on out.
How pathetic! What arrogance had filled my heart!
Here I was facing a physical crisis again. A nodule was discovered on my thyroid and I needed to go through the process again; the process of accepting God’s purpose for my life–whatever that purpose would be. I had to once again embrace—with humility—the fact that I did not know what my tomorrow holds for me.
I decided to approach this new physical condition the same way I did the brain tumor–with prayers of complete acceptance and thankfulness. First came reading scripture and praying with expectancy. Finding God’s words for me were crucial. I knew Truth was the only thing that could carry me through my valley.
That’s when the most wonderful thing happened. Passages I had always loved took on a new life. An exciting brilliance filled my soul.
Why bring up a physical challenge that was taken care of years ago? Today my neck is fine. I had a fine-needle biopsy and the tumor was benign.
The truth was and is still the same–God is always there, and he has a plan just for me. Can you look back over your years and see God’s hand in it? Maybe it didn’t play out how you would have wanted it, but I promise you–no, God’s Words promises you– that you were not alone.
Were you abused? God was there and suffered with you.
Did someone do you wrong? God felt that, too.
Have you just had your “What’s that lump” moment?
While seasons in our lives play out, no matter how dark it may get, know God is with you. Every step of the way.
Do you feel like you don’t matter? How has 2021 started? Are you happy … or are you doing what you never thought you’d do? Do you see consistencies … or are you all over the place? Drop me a line. I’d love to chat.
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