Asking for God’s Blessings

Why is it I tend to only talk about the God I see in the rear-view mirror?

It’s easy to share stories of His presence after I’ve crested a hill or made it through the latest crisis. But I’ve come to realize that’s when the victory ends up being about me. My relationship with Christ. My answered prayer. My faith that sustained me. See what I mean–rear-view mirror.

Pathetic, just pathetic.

I want to have a confidence in the God of my today. He’s constant. It’s my pain, fear, and sometimes lack of faith that I struggle with. I am a broken person. I need to seek God’s face.

Lean in and I’ll whisper a secret fear to you. Will God think I’m crazy and selfish if I ask him to answer the prayer of my heart? I can’t tell others about my prayers to God because what would they think of me if the prayers don’t get answered? Maybe I’m asking with a self-serving heart? Maybe I’m spending too much time asking for my glory instead of His?

Then it came to me: It’s not the size of the ask, it’s the condition of the heart when I ask. I need to check on my heart when I go to God and not wait until the the blessing has played out. Half the blessing is in the process. The other half comes when I can see it.

of moose and menIn reading Torry Martin’s book, “Of Moose and Men” (Harvest House, 2016), a line jumped off the page and into my heart, “…God doesn’t just answer prayers. He sometimes exceeds our measly requests so that our cup may runneth over.” Torry shares stories of his life–as well as his best friend Rob and faithful dog, Sam–in Alaska and how God used challenges to show His presence.

I need to remember that God’s always awesome—always! I need to remember that it’s me and my self-run focus that gets in the way of receiving the blessings God has for me. He wants to bless me, and I want to be open to His blessing.

Just as in Mark 9:24, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”

I love it when a book changes my heart. That happened with this one. Give it a read. You’ll be blessed by it, too.  And together we can tell of God’s blessings for us while we’re climbing our hills.

Reminders from the Strangest Places

I’m a bit bleary eyed today, because I stayed up to watch last nights 67th Annual Tony Awards. My main reason for watching is that my brother-in-law’s (Hal Luftig) Broadway musical, Kinky Boots, was up for many nominations and I wanted to support him and the other nominees … at least from afar.

I love listening to all the acceptance speeches where they thank their agent, their mentors, and their supporting families. It’s nice to see these actors share their moment with those who committed time into their lives. It’s nice to see the humanity in it all.

But I can’t get Billy Porter’s acceptance speech out of my mind. Here it is in its entirety:

Did you catch it?

“To my mother, Clorinda Jean Johnson Porter Ford … You are the personification of true Christianity. Your willingness to embrace that which you do not understand with unconditional love is a template the world could benefit from employing.  Your courage gives me life and I love you.”

How do we heal relationships? By doing just that. Matthew 22:36-40 says:

 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

There can be conversations later to address differences if need be, but first there needs to be love. We aren’t to love because it feels right … we’re to love because we’re told it is right.

Oh, and Hal and Kinky Boots won the Tony for Best Musical.  I cried and my husband whooped it up when Hal accepted the award. We’re so very proud of his accomplishments  …and we love completely.